Grow up!



When I was 7 years old I decided I would move to the United States! My parents loved the country and were always talking about moving there. They planted a dream in me, that I still haven’t let go. I didn’t know yet how or when, but one day I would move. As a kid, I didn’t think about what that would mean, leaving my family, my culture, my friends.. Everything I knew in my little world. I always thought I’d become a famous singer. I thought as soon as Id set foot on American soil I would be handed a record deal. Then I could fly back and forth whenever I would please. So what’s everyone crying about?.. Oh how nice it was to be so naive 😉 I know better now, it takes 1200 bucks and 20 plus hours to see my family. Not a little walk to the house I grew up in to have a cup of coffee to catch up with my mom, shopping sprees with my little sister, or driving down to see how opa and Oma are doing. People often think when I tell them I moved to this country alone, that I must have been the black sheep of the family.. But that couldn’t be farther from the truth. My family is very close. I had a wonderful childhood and have the best parents. Me and my mom had our daily Oprah session, where I would come home from school and we’d make snacks and watch Oprah together. Now we talk on the phone every other day and talk about the Ellen Show. Opa and Oma have figured out email, so we stay in touch. I might be thousands of miles away, but I’m still very close to my family. I often wonder if I would have stayed in holland some of my adult life, maybe until I was 20, if I would’ve ever left… I had no clue how hard it would be to persue my biggest dream. I left right before that stage in life when you start thinking about the consequences, and things that can go wrong. I thought I was invincible. Even though I only had money to pay for a car and one year of college, I knew I would be here forever. I had no plan B, this was it! And I’m still here, living with my sweet puppy and favorite person in the world, happier than ever. Living in a house surrounded by trees and flowers and silence, except for when our redneck neighbors work on one of their 5 pick up trucks that are broke down in the yard.. Haha I didn’t say I was finished dreaming! I still have big plans, but it’s nice to share those with the person you love. As independent as I have been, and as fast as I’ve had to grow up, I love not having to feel alone anymore. So far I’ve found everything I’ve ever dreamed of! I’m happy 



New Challenge

For 8 years now, running has been a huge part of my life.



 It has introduced me to my best friends in the whole world, helped me get a scholarship for college, helped me lose my freshman.. 35.. And has helped me keep a sane mind through many stressful situations. I love everything about it, being in nature, just by myself, listening to music, and of course staying fit. I’m not a natural born athlete, I lose my fitness insanely fast. I remember when I first started, couldn’t even run a mile.. And look at me now, last month me and my BFFs ran our 3rd marathon. 26.2 miles of pleasure and torture.. As great as my love is to get out on the road, just me and my favorite shoes, it gets tough on my body. Especially since I’m tall, I often feel my back aching, begging me to “take it easy,” which is not in my vocabulary. Since Charlie has many back problems I started looking online.. Yea I’m one of those 😉 I found many articles of people that have “cured” their aches and pains with yoga. I had tried yoga a few times, but didn’t have the patience to ever stick with it. But for the last few weeks I’ve forced myself to try it and see how it would work for me. And wow.. Only a few weeks in and I already have fallen in love with it! So many challenges!! Starting off I was so impressed with the headstand, I tried it a couple times for fun and couldn’t even push my body up over my head against the wall.. 



But look! Just a few weeks of daily practice and unflexible me can hold a headstand! I feel improvement by the day, which I love, since I’m not a patient person. Yesterday I did a variation of the side crane pose





I’m excited to see where my newly found yoga challenge will take me. If anything the flexibility will surely help my running stride. 

And for helping with back pain, usually working promos, my back will acke within a few hours. This weekend I worked standing in heels for 3 days. Although my feet felt like death, my back hadn’t hurt one bit the whole weekend! I’m looking forward to making more progress in the next months ☺️🙏